Abundance #4
I love to write. Ideas stir inside me and demand to be
expressed. But there is more. It is not just processing my inner thoughts,
which could be done verbally. The progression of writing drops me into an
otherworldly space. An out of body sensation is usually present as I phrase and
rephrase the content and word order. I like things to sound just right as I
attempt to reveal my mental and emotional life to others.
The vulnerability in writing thrills me. Anxiety and excitement,
two sides of the same coin, play themselves out whenever I publicly share my
works. I wonder if this is how gamblers feel, a mix of the fear of loss (in a
writer’s case criticism or rejection) with the potential of a big win. But what
constitutes a, “big win” for an amateur writer?
A couple of years ago when I first started to blog a friend
at the time asked me in a rather negative way, “Why would you think anyone
would want to read what you have to write?”
This question haunts me every time I click the, “publish” button on the
Blogger website.
My answer to that friend’s antagonistic remark has changed
since I initially responded. At the time my response was a self-protecting, “I write
for me and no one else.” Although, when I think about writing now, especially
through the lens of nurturing abundance in my life, I know that writing isn’t
just about me. My soul longs to positively impact at least a few people through
my written word. Whether it is presenting a new viewpoint, offering a funny
story or perhaps showing others that they too can write.
So, I will continue to write with abundance and hopefully
some self-love and compassion.
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